When I was 10, I wished I can grow more in inches.
I was the shortest among my friends. I entered standard 5 and often got teased for my height. All I did was to smile and pretend that they were just joking with me, not laughing at me.
When I was 13, I wished I can grow more in courage.
I was over confident for a race and I was defeated despite it was an all out run. I laid on the grass, tears bursting out and I wondered. Why I couldn't take that failure. What's worse than losing to others is to lose to yourself.
When I was 14, I wished I can grow more in strength.
I won 800m and 1500m and I was just short of one more victory to claim the best female athlete. I failed. I was just not strong enough. I took failure with calm and humble.
When I was 16, I wished I can grow more in confidence.
I never believed I won the title which I've been fighting for years.
When I was 18, I wished I can grow more in leadership.
I wanted to help my coach when I returned to the school team. They lost the year after I finished Form 5. I wanted to boost their spirit, I should be their leader. But I wasn't good enough.
When I was 20, I wished I can grow more in effectiveness.
Laziness has no cure. My lay-back personality must be changed. I need better self management.
I realised that I chase after different things in different stages of my life. In the end, I need lots and lots of wisdom. This is life, journeyed by my feet, authored by my hands. What I have in mind---keep going, you will never know what's around the corner until you reach there. Know what you want and you will reach there. Eventually.