Thoughts worth thinking

What have we learned from the past?

The Earth sent its second warning, people are struggling and Malaysians are posting status updates.

We are too defenseless, staying in the comfort zone. What would happen if Sumatera is not standing between us and the Indian Ocean.

The Japanese, on the other hand, had learned a lot from the disaster last year. Safety is always the first issue that cross their thoughts and we are here posting status update.

What if the tsunami really hit us?

Developed nation? But where's the first class mentality?

The missing identity

Sometimes, I'm confused about myself.

Being trained as a long distance runner by my first coach, I was chosen to take hurdles by my second coach. I was the long distance runner, hurdler and relay racer for my secondary school team.

When I entered the university, I lost my strength and stamina. At some point, I nearly gave up, I've been running on the wrong type of shoes and having knee problems. I found new hope in myself after trying on Nike Air and is currently a Nike Lunar user. I started to enjoy running again.

When I've decided to extend my long distance running to marathon, I got a call from Sports Centre that I was selected as a track and field athlete. My third coach (although I think he doesn't qualified) told me that I'm a sprinter, I argued and he insisted. Due to team requirement, I need to do middle distance which is 400 metres.

I begin to think if I need to play different roles at different stages of life. If I really need to do so I am ready because we don't get to decide on many things in life. We have to evolve and adapt to situations.

Three

At the beginning of my final year as undergraduate in the University of Malaya, I had made 3 little wishes, or should I say targets. My first target is academic target, second target is Toastmasters target and the last one is sports target.

I want to graduate with first class for my degree and it seems that I am on the right track. What I am doing right now is to enjoy the precious time with my coursemates.

I have achieved advanced communicator bronze and competent leader but I also want to achieve 'President Distinguished Club' status for my club during my term as the club president. It seems hard but I see the light recently. I tell myself to keep going, keep going! I am almost there.

As for sports, it's quite far away from me now, thanks to all the work that put me off the target. Perhaps a little bit more time but at least I know that I can at least run my first half marathon this June.

I know what I want for myself but I need many targets on the way.

Go, Jing Yi~!

Tolerance

The largest space in the world is not the universe but the heart. And yet it is also the smallest.

I'm curious about my tolerance when I'm under pressure.

I felt extremely calm standing at the starting line with national athletes at the adjacent lanes, telling myself that I have nothing to lose.

I took deep breath while reading through the exam questions not knowing how to answer, knowing in the end I can figure it out.

I smiled while answering questions during thesis seminar, knowing that I'm that lecturer's least favourite student.

I learn to always prepare for the worst and after that good things will come to me. It has to do with all the psychology knowledge learnt from my first coach. I'm so glad that I acquire this skill which help me conquer many mission impossible with great endurance and mental strength.

The largest space in the world is not the universe but the heart. And yet it is also the smallest. Your maturity sets the size of your heart.

MASUM 2012

Life is like racing. We don't get to choose the lane we run, the team we want or the competitors we race. We can say life is unfair. Hmmm...exactly~! But it doesn't mean that we should live on with it. I always believe that we can change our life. Not completely changing but I've been positive about many things in life.

We can choose to complain or we can choose to get over it. It's the choice we make that matters. And I choose to believe.

Those who complain can never learn to love. I always know that all the things I do are not meant to impress anyone. I never want to, I just want to improve myself, this I tell to myself everytime when I step onto the starting line. When I look up, it's the lane that I need to conquer. Good or bad, it depends on how I want to perform. And I know I want to bring out the best in myself. It doesn't matter if those on the adjacent lanes are national athletes, I just need to beat myself.

The most important thing is to finish strong to the best of your ability and feeling proud of all the efforts and sacrifice. And I have no complaints.

Tough decision

Life is about making decisions. We make hundred thousands decision in one day. I know life is always being tough on me, testing my body, mind and soul. I have no break.

I never try to capture attention in public but some how attention finds its way to me. I can run but not away from decision. I need to make decisions.

Sometimes, I will think this way, I don't want to offend any party. But then why should I strive so hard to impress those parties that don't even care how I feel.

Life is on going, I'm still in the journey. Nevertheless, win-win situation is always my ultimate direction. I know it seldom happen but at least I tried.

Speech contest

Spent one whole week thinking of what to speak in the coming international speech contest.

One week gone, deadline's near, doomed!

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Heavy rain fell, idea's here, done!

Such a waste of my brain juice, I would rather use it for other things.

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Busy busy, no time to practice.

Tomorrow tomorrow, the day the day,

Nervous but ever ready.